It is finished!
A few days ago I hit the publish button on the third and final book in my Iron City Trilogy, entitled Iron City Revolution. I sent it out there into the big wide world, and it was the most terrifying and nerve-wracking of the three books to date.
I honestly thought it could not get any worse after releasing my first book. Back then, I was terrified that nobody would by it, and if they did, they would hate it. I bit my finger nails to the quick watching and waiting for that first damning review that would expose to the whole world what a phony I was in thinking I could be a writer. Luckily, it never came, and so far, all the feedback I have had has been positive. Wonderful!
And then, book three. All of the fear and trepidation I felt upon releasing book one was magnified. So some people bought book one? So what? It doesn't mean they liked it, and it certainly doesn't mean that they will go on and buy book two or book three. What if they actually did though? What if they liked the first book, and then hated the other two? Would that mean the first one being enjoyable was just a fluke?
These were just a few of the thoughts that ran through my head while I waited for Revolution to go through the amazon review process, and for the most part, those dread-filled thoughts have persisted. That is probably because so far, there hasn't been a single sale of book three.
But that's all right. In a way, that fear is a good thing, because it means that I care what people think. It means I want to try and put out the best writing I can, because to do otherwise, just invites disaster and I don't think my fragile ego can take it. (Ok, it's not really that fragile. I am pretty thick skinned. At least I think so. I guess when I get my first bad review, I'll know for sure.)
Aside from all the fear though, is a sense of accomplishment. Not that long ago, I was not sure I would ever finish even a single book, and now, I have three done, and a completed trilogy to boot. I've proven to myself that I am capable, and that alone gives me a great boost in confidence and the desire to keep on going.
I'm looking forward to moving on to something new, and meeting some new characters.
I can't wait!